but today, sempena hari dan bulan mulia ini. for what ever reason, I wanna to reveal some things that many people think I am, but I am not... the moment of truth...
mungkin ramai yang fikir aku ni seorang yang baik dan menjaga semua perbuatan aku, but it is not. bagi aku, I am da stupid creature in this entire world. I am been expecting and searching many things that I think I suppose to get it, coz I deserve it. but actually it already been in front of my eyes, since forever. but now I do realise it and I will be appreaciated it, always. Please if someone read this, and been thinking I am the good people, please change it. coz I am not one.
Along these times, I had did many bad things behind all people I knew. very bad bad thing, out of what you all can possibly imagine I can do. The easiest way to make this clear that, I myself feels 'jijik' to what ever I did, seriuosly.... the reasons I tell these things, because I not deserve da perception that had been tagged with along this while. and I really want to straight things up, with all previous perception everybody to me, it is hard for me to change myself. I do not ask for your sarcasm to threat me after reading this but by not thinking I am a good man, already satisfying for me, please.
I knew, maybe many people will not understang my position right now. but believe me, I already stuck on some of peoples' perception on me. maybe you all still thinking that it is nothing wrong from getting such good perception from everybody, but the true is, that also be the reason I did many things wrong because I think you all still keep thinking I am a good man...
I do really hope that I can CHANGE myself to better man, to ALLAH, Its Messenger, My Parents and all my friends beside me. I am mostly appreaciated all your loves and attention to me and I'm promised that I try very hard learning to spread it back...
the best way to prevent bad things is, not to change it but try your hardest to not be one.believe me...
